Light

I'm sorry I let the darkness take me over the past few days. I know this situation is hard. I even said just a few days ago that it's hard enough having to worry about our own spouses blowing up without having to worry about each other blowing up. And then I went and blew up.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I ignored you the other day, twice. I regret it. I was hurting pretty badly, but I shouldn't hurt you in return.

I'm still stung, but… I woke up this morning feeling significantly lighter than I had the past couple of days.

And it doesn't matter who made the mess or why (I certainly played my own part in that). I shouldn't put all the weight of cleaning it up on you.

It might still take me a little time to be able to open up to you again. But that doesn't mean I won't enjoy your presence. That doesn't mean that I'm not longing to see you again. God, even as I was ignoring you the other day all I really wanted to do was to see you…

I love you. And I will tell you that someday. I have to.

I'm sorry for being so easily broken. I'll try to be stronger.

Always yours, no matter what,
♒️